Struggle

I'm always unsettled about what I should strive for.

I've been with people who totally strive for inner happiness... They want to be internally happy which in turn would bring in a meaning to their life and hence they will be able to be more productive in life. I understand that.

Then, on the other hand, I'm attracted towards people who are suffering from inside. They are not happy, infact struggling, but they aim more towards making other people's life easier. What a noble work.

These two things are very opposite from one another.
My perplexity is that I am standing at a point in my life where I can actually choose one of the two and then work towards it. I seem to be switching back and forth from one to the other. I want to stick with one and continue.

Then the thought occured to me: maybe this is how it is supposed to be. You are supposed to work on both, but one at a time. You cant choose between then two. This path is harder than the two paths taken alone, but it makes more sense.

So basicallly I was confused between these two quotations of people:
1. "The personal life deeply lived always expands into truths beyond itself." ANAIS NIN
2. Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile." ALBERT EINSTEIN